Growing up, Carla’s home situation was volatile. Her dad wasn’t around very much, and her mom struggled with depression. Some days everything was fine, and some days her mom was enraged, blaming her children for things they didn’t do, shouting at them her regrets about being their mother.
Carla kept to herself and focused on trying to keep her mom happy. She loved books and bugs. She did well in school. She had nice friends.
Then things got worse at home, and she was coerced into an experience that knocked her to the ground. She stopped caring about herself. She got involved with dangerous people. She stuck around in an abusive relationship. She drank too much, mostly all alone in her bedroom. She thought a lot about killing herself.
This is a story about a young woman learning, after far too long, that she matters. That her voice matters. That her opinions matter. That her body matters. It’s a story about dealing with trauma in many forms, and how sometimes the experiences that feel scariest (like finding out you’re pregnant as a teenager) can actually be the catalysts for everything getting better.
*Note that this episode includes discussion about sexual abuse and abortion.